I don't even know where to begin. You turn two this week, and I have no idea where the time has gone. I longed for a baby for years and years before you were even a bean in my belly, and I never really knew what it would be like to finally have what I wanted so badly.
When you were born, it hit me hard. Your birth was a difficult one, but the weeks after were much harder. We didn't really bond to begin with, I'm sure people fib when they say that that feeling is instant. Two years on, and I cannot imagine my life without you in it.
You have taught me how to be patient and fun again; and you've also taught me how much love one person can really feel for another.
I am so, so proud of what you have learnt in your two years Earth side. You know how to count to ten, sometimes even all the way to fourteen. You know your colours, and your letters. You know how to fist bump and high five. And best of all, you know how to give the most amazing snuggles.
The past two years have been tough with your daddy. We've moved half way across the country with you and had a lot of ups and downs along the way. But I have also learnt how absolutely incredible your dad is. He loves you so unbelievably much, and because of that I have fallen more in love with him than I ever thought possible. He was scared, you know; before you were born. We both were. We didn't know how we would cope, being so far away from the rest of the family; but your dad knew exactly what to do when times were hard. When Mama was struggling with breastfeeding, or being so tired from the very little sleep. He knew how to make things feel easier, even when they really weren't.
Thank you for making these last two years so amazing. I can't wait to watch you grow up more, and to see which characteristics you will take on in the next few years. When this post goes up on the blog, we will be in Skegness having our first proper family holiday. All by ourselves, just me, you and Daddy. I hope you're having the best time.
I love you so much. Happy birthday; now let's go ride the carousel.
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